My name is Mac, a male member of Universe Club.

Since I joined about XNUMX years ago, I have offered dozens of people.The allowance for adult dating is XNUMX yen.

There is a woman to whom I sent XNUMX million yen in cash by courier only once.

What made you want to do that?

I have summarized it as a column article as a self-analysis.It may be helpful for female members.Please come along if you like.

The reason I sent XNUMX million yen was to break up with him.

She was a woman worth developing sexually.She was fascinated while raising her, but one day she realized that I might be distorting her life.

I think it would be better for me to leave.

But I don't want to be the bad guy.

So, first of all, I showed my sincerity by sending XNUMX million yen in cash along with Godiva chocolates.

I just made a line saying "I will send you chocolate" in advance.

I got a reply from her.

"I appreciate the chocolate, but I'm worried about the money. I can't accept it."

"No, it's a feeling of gratitude for all the fun you've had so far, so keep it."

"Can't we meet again?"

I think so.

“No, it’s been three years since we became friends, so I thought it was a milestone. I'm a little sad lately that I might not be able to move forward."

"But I've never seen such a large amount of money. It's scary."

"Anyway, save it. Let's talk slowly when we meet again."

In this exchange, if I didn't send XNUMX million yen and just wrote, "I think it's time to get married soon," wouldn't it be really disgusting?

It's just a throwaway poi shit bastard.not worth living.

I want to somehow pretend that I'm not that kind of person.XNUMX million yen for that.

After that, I didn't ask her out and she stopped contacting me.

And three months have passed.

I got a line from her.

"It's been a long time. I've been thinking about it since then. It's a bit embarrassing to say goodbye like this, so if you don't mind, could you meet me once?"

This is a quick reply.

"Of course. When is the right time?"

And on that day, as usual, she took a taxi from the nearest station and picked me up in front of my office.

It was as if there had never been a time when we hadn't seen each other for three months.

Then eat, have sex and sleep as usual.

"O-chan, I love you"

I hugged her tightly and whispered my love for her with the feeling of squeezing out every drop from the bottom of my heart.

You're about to break up, but "love" is so white?

What do I know about someone who says such a thing?

If this girl's life is in danger now and I can take her place, I will offer my life without hesitation.

I have lived enough.

She doesn't say anything, she closes her eyes and hugs me.

Did you do that for about XNUMX minutes?

I loosened my grip on her and boldly began to speak.

"For 〇-chan, I think that if 〇-chan is going to get married from now on, I will be both a plus and a minus." The downside is that my presence may make ○-chan feel at ease, and she may not feel like actively working on marriage.”

she interrupted.

"I understand what you're saying. I've been thinking about that too. So, as a guideline, I'm thinking of putting an end to it by the end of this year."

"Yes! I understand."

It was the beginning of December.Christmas is near.

"Then, for Christmas this year, I'm going to reserve a suite room in a very luxurious hotel."

"thank you"

and Christmas.

Until last year, I invited some of my female girlfriends, made them dress up as Santa, went out on the town in a limousine, and played multiple games at the hotel.

Let's spend this year alone with this girl.

Come to think of it, I've played a lot in the last five years.

What will you be doing next Christmas?

When we were looking at the night view from our hotel room, she started talking.

"I really want to return that money."

“No, don’t say that.

"But I'm scared. It's still in the paper bag and it's in the back of the closet. When I look at it, I gradually feel like it's my money, so I keep the paper bag closed. I can always return it by courier. can"

"I have had sex with you for the last three years and it has been a lot of fun. But at the same time, I care about you very much. The only way I can prove it is money." That's why I want you to receive it, and I want you to remember that you were truly valued."

"Thank you. But what should I do? How can I prove my feelings?"

"I just want to prove that I love you, your feelings aren't the problem. I don't want you to like me. But if you're not convinced, someday when you're truly happy, you won't need this XNUMX million yen or the confidence that you're loved by me. Then give it back to me.Until then, keep it in case something happens.Even if you don't need it now, there will be times in your life when you really need money."

"I understand. Then I'll keep it."

This girl is by no means from a wealthy family. She is an office lady who lives alone in a XNUMXK apartment.

However, I am the type to make a clear distinction between my money and money that does not belong to me.

I was a little surprised when I heard about it before, but every time I receive XNUMX yen, he opens a new account at the bank and transfers it to that account without using it.

He said, "It's not my money (I should have received it), so I thought it might come time to pay it back."

Originally, she said she didn't need any allowance for graduating from virginity.

He's human, so it's not strange that he later changes his mind and decides to make it his own.But when he said those words, he probably didn't lie in his feelings.

So the title is actually wrong.

The correct answer is, "How to save XNUMX million yen as a dad."

I am looking forward to receiving a letter from her saying, "I am happy now. I don't need this money anymore."

・ ・ ・ ・ ・ ・ ・ ・ ・ ・

Now, I know that if I end the story with this, it will wrap up nicely.

However··

The truth is, I want to marry her.

I want to start over with just the two of us, the quiet, ordinary life that I was supposed to live.

Even if they are over XNUMX years apart.

Do not go.

This is a feeling that I can never express.

Just writing these four lines makes my heart vomit blood.

Tell yourself it's play.And the game ends beautifully.

I'm a man, so I dress up.

But the real me is not that strong.

Not only her, but the girls who appear in front of me and who are good friends with me.

I actually feel the same way about each of them.

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Well, that's the end of this series.

What did you think?

I would be happy if you could write your impressions in the comment section, and I would appreciate it if you could give me an opinion from a different point of view.

(Part XNUMX,Part XNUMX.Part XNUMX,Part XNUMX,XNUMX,Part XNUMX,XNUMX,Part XNUMX,Part XNUMX,XNUMX.the eleventh）