Romance Vaccine Extra Story to rewrite the past (XNUMX)

The green of the street trees was dazzling.

In autumn, the ginkgo will turn yellow, and the plane trees will add color.

Even if the clothes of passers-by change with the seasons, their hearts do not change easily.

Everyone carries the baggage of the past.

It would be nice if the leaves would fall like the changing seasons and scatter.

Maki consulted a mental clinic near the university.

A thoughtful gray-haired doctor wearing silver-rimmed glasses listened to Maki's story while nodding.

Perhaps the reason why he doesn't dye his gray hair is to hide his surprisingly young real age and show dignity.

She had a fair complexion and few wrinkles on her face.

the doctor said.

-First of all, it's important not to keep the unfortunate events of your high school years in your heart.
By explaining the situation in as much detail as possible to someone you trust, like you are telling me, your heart will gradually recover.
Secondly, you just said you consciously avoid black vans and grass in vacant lots. It also requires some work.
It's good to be brave and go to the site again.ー

ーWell, in my case, I have flashbacks when I think that I might have sex with a man and have my body licked, but what should I do?ー

-Every time?ー

- Yes.ー

The doctor thought for a moment and then said.

-In that case, you should refrain from having sex for a while-

-Eh?ー

- If you are dating someone, try to get them to understand you.If you don't mind, you can come and I can explain.ー

-I don't have a boyfriend right now...

- That's all.I'm afraid you're a sex addict, but from what I've heard, I don't think you're that far yet.
However, repeated intense re-experiencing, such as flashbacks, can lead to a true sex addiction, as the mind amplifies pleasure to compensate for and balance suffering.ー

Maki was prescribed something like a mild sleeping pill and a tranquilizer, and left the mental clinic.

I was a little, no, quite embarrassed.

I don't feel like I can quit the date club and pay back the scholarship with just a normal part-time job.

Since I receive a monthly payment of XNUMX yen, I will have a debt of XNUMX million yen in four years of college.

Besides, it's frustrating that it's wasted even though I played a well-bred young lady.

On the other hand, I don't think I can tell the men at the date club about the situation and get paid without having sex.

The world isn't that sweet.

Above all, Maki herself likes sex.

I love my penis.

Is it addiction to say that I like sex and can't help it?

But the doctor said you weren't addicted yet.

I remember it clearly.

Then you shouldn't have to stop having sex.

Maki couldn't wait for her second date with Ina.

Ina is also a doctor.

I may be able to give you some wisdom.

The summer sky was blue, with white clouds that looked like someone had torn cotton and thrown it up.

Seen from that height, human activities must be so small that they are insignificant.

A world as big as the sky spreads out in the heart of that small human being.

On the weekend, Ina finished work early and was driving.

I'm in a good mood playing nostalgic XNUMX's music.

Second date with Maki.

It's been about two weeks since the first time.

Today I'm driving to a hotel on the cape with a view of the lighthouse, which I used to go to when I was young.

Remnants of XNUMXs bubble-era resort development still linger when Ina is young, with trendy cafes and surf shops, and a stylish sign that says, "Don't throw away your trash with her." was hung on the side of the road.

It was a time when many young people would ask their parents to buy a second-hand car to celebrate when they entered university.

The road remains the same, but now most of the shops are gone, and it will surely be pitch black at night.

The white hotel, which used to be crowded with young people in the past, seems to be somehow continuing to operate, relying on elderly group guests.

The beauty of the setting sun remains unchanged.

Rather, the unchanging nature seems to have become more vivid because there are no people.

-Sorry, it's a little lonely because there aren't many people.But for me, it's a familiar place.I've been wanting to come here for a long time.ー

- No, it's very beautiful, it's my first time here.ー

Maki was happy.

I remembered the blue sea of ​​Okinawa where I went on a school excursion.

Maki, who has no leeway in her life, has never traveled anywhere else.

Even if you don't go to Okinawa, you can see such a beautiful scenery just by driving for about two hours.

Ina also remembered.

It was a memorable date place with a girlfriend named Shiho who was dating when I was a student.

I broke up with her after half a year.

This is because Shiho's marriage partner has been decided through an arranged marriage meeting.

The other party was an assistant professor at Ina's university, and was also Ina's boss after Ina graduated and became a doctor.

Ina was still a student and Shiho was older.

One day, about ten days after Shiho's wedding, I bumped into Shiho in town.

Shiho ran up to Ina, who was nostalgic, but was confused about whether to talk to Shiho, who became a married woman, and approached her body without regard for the eyes.

It was like crying.

ーWhat happened?ー

ーーー

- For now, the car is there, so why don't you get in?ー

Shiho silently nodded.

Ina started the car.

When I moved to an unpopular place and parked the car and asked about the situation, I came back from my honeymoon the day before yesterday, but I didn't get along with my husband, and now I'm going back to my girlfriend's parents' house, but my parents' eyes are hard on my friend. It seems that he left home to go see him.

ーI want to go somewhere.Please, take me somewhere far awayー

Then Ina drove to the beach where she could see the lighthouse where she had her last date with Shiho half a year ago. It was

Shall we just check in and stay at that white hotel tonight?

However, if you stay out overnight without permission, it will certainly cause a ruckus.

The sun had set and the area had become dark, and only the whiteness of the sea spray was visible at night.

The sound of waves crashing repeatedly.

Shall we stay with Shiho?

Or should I send it back?

How many waves have washed up on this beach since that night?

Time passes and people grow old.

However, the memory of Shiho's thin, long, supple hair at that time remains entwined in Ina's heart.

Washed repeatedly by the waves of time, Shiho's image is polished like a marble mermaid statue, and is engraved in Ina's heart along with the scene of the night sea.

While snuggling up to Maki, Ina felt that she was in the same scenery as Shiho at that time.

The difference is that I am old.

Tonight, let's stay with this girl at the white hotel where we didn't stay at that time.

And I blame myself for being unworthy of not being able to take Shiho and make it my own.

Had I worked up the courage to stay with Shiho that night, my life would have surely changed.

When Ina gets along with a girl at a date club, she always drives to this beach and spends the night at a white hotel with a view of the lighthouse.

It was as if he was struggling to overwrite an irreversible memory by retrying and succeeding in a game he had been unable to beat in the past.

Sea of ​​night.

The crashing waves are like droplets of moonlight.

Or maybe the white skin of a mermaid swimming in the sea is illuminated through the water.

The shells are still and motionless, as if thinking of the bottom of the sea where they once lived.

The sea breeze wafts the faint scent of the ocean like music.

Ina checked into the hotel, had an early dinner at the restaurant, and invited Maki to the beach at sunset.

When I went down the stairs from the restaurant's terrace, there was already a sandy beach, and the waves were illuminated white by the lights of the hotel.

Ina asked Maki while slowly walking along the beach.

-Have you tried going to a psychiatrist?ー

- Yes.ー

- So how was it?Did counseling make you feel better?ー

No, I was told not to have too much sex.ー

Ina stood still.

-Eh?Is that so?ー

- Yes, you said you have to avoid flashbacks and if sex is the trigger, avoid it.ー

Ina was in trouble.

It was unexpected, and I was planning to enjoy it with Maki slowly tonight.

But what the psychiatrist says makes sense, too.

Since it's PTSD, I guess the only thing I can do is avoid situations that strongly remind me of bad memories from the past, and hope that it will heal over time.

Since she's here with that in mind, Ina is well-made, and although it's difficult to control her high libido, it can't be helped if it's for the sake of this poor girl.

Tonight may be a sleepless night.

-I see.I'm sorry, but I can't have sex with you today.ー

- No, please.ー

-Eh?ー

- My psychiatrist said so, so I thought about it for a long time, but it seems that I am not a sex addict yet.
If that's the case, it's not the sex itself, but flashbacks are bad, so I think we should be careful not to let them happen.ー

I see, Maki has a point.

-I'm dressed in such a way that I don't look shabby, but it's embarrassing to say that I'm not from a very wealthy family and I went to college on a scholarship.I'm in trouble if I lose my job at the date club.And...

Maki chose her words a bit before continuing slowly.

ーBesides, Ina-san is a doctor and you seem to be a kind person, so if it's okay with you, would you mind going on dates with me and continuing to have sex without overdoing it?
It may be an impudent request, but I have no one else to rely on.ー

Maki's real intention was that a life without sex was unbearable.

But I can't say that to Ina.

Ina was impressed.

It's a reasonable story, and I don't feel bad about being relied on as a doctor.

As a doctor myself, I am well aware that what the psychiatrist says is not XNUMX% correct and that there are no other options.

Actually, there is a trick like a shortcut of the way out.

-I understand.I'm also embarrassed by my ulterior motives, but I'm happier.
I was disappointed for a moment, thinking that I was wasting my stay tonight.ー

Maki smiled.

This uncle is a good man.

I wouldn't say unreasonable.

Some men have a sadistic propensity to make Maki scream even more in pain during sex.

For the time being, let's go out with only Ina.

Then they went back to their room and had sex for the second time.

Maki is lying on the bed with a tense look, but her lower body is exposed defenselessly.

Ina made Maki hug her pillow, opened her legs with both hands, and slowly inserted her penis.

Maki's shoulders shook little by little as if she was frightened, and it looked like she was fighting something and enduring it.

In contrast, her lower body smoothly wrapped around Ina's, and Maki exclaimed, "Ah!"

The beach cotton that blooms on the beach produces white flowers in early summer.

The petals, like crazy curves, seem to yearn for the sea, and they also look like they are struggling to escape from the sea.

There are four flower languages ​​for hamamomen.

"Somewhere far away"

"I believe you"

"no dirt"

"Clean"

Spotless and clean, trusting you to go somewhere far away.

Everyone holds Hamamomen somewhere in their hearts.