Private Heart Joe Scenery ~Joe Hits the Drum~Second Half

"I know, but I can't stop"

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If you live long enough, you will experience days that can only be called bad days when nothing goes your way.

This day was just such a day.She gets dumped by Sakura-chan, and Princess Kayoko gets angry and leaves without staying.
Human emotions are strange because it makes me laugh rather than painful if I don't have this much.

But the problem comes later, and the real pain comes later.

In Joe's case, I was made to realize just how big Sakura's presence was.

And even though it's been a long time since he said goodbye to Sakura, the wound in Joe's heart still hasn't healed.

It might sound like a sore loser, and it's a sore loser, but Joe has always wanted to break his heart with Sakura.

And I keep rubbing salt on the wound so that the feeling lasts.I know it's not something a married man over 50 would do, but

"I know, but I can't stop"It's not just plants and trees.
 

Simplicity and impact are incompatible

I don't want to write specifics about the three conditions unilaterally declared by Sakura.

Because if you write it, Joe's smallness and smallness will be exposed.

Just when there was silence on the phone, I thought that what I wanted had finally happened.
The third of the three conditions is simply unacceptable.I knew I would regret it, but Joe's answer was already decided.

That way, you'll get the breakup you've been hoping for.
Even so, it took me a while to reply because I was at a loss as to what to say.

Be as concise and impactful as possible.A lot of thoughts ran through my head
In this case, we decided that "simplicity" and "impact" were incompatible, and chose the former.

"I can't accept the third condition, so goodbye. I'm sorry."

 

Silence again.Sakura broke the silence this time.As simple as Joe.

"Yes. Thank you for everything, good night."

"good night"

Joe hangs up.Right after that, I got an email from Sakura-chan.

"Thank you for everything, Joe. It was a lot of fun. Hope you are well."


After confirming the letter, Joe deleted all contact information and past emails regarding Sakura.
(Actually, this is a waste of effort, at least because all contacts are memorized. You can't erase memories in your head.)

Nevertheless, Joe's wish to break up with Sakura was finally realized.
 

"Onnagokoro" is as complicated and mysterious as the situation in Europe

It wasn't until we got back to the store that things got complicated.

Princess Kayoko was clearly in a bad mood, but Joe had no idea why.

I soothed him out of the store and returned to my room.The interrogation of Princess Kayoko begins.

"Who is Sakura-chan?"

Princess Kayoko's voice contains anger.Apparently she saw the standby screen when her phone rang.

"She's the girl I met at the dating club. It ended with the phone call just now."
Joe to be honest.

"There was a after the name. Is it on me too?"

Far from being unlucky, I didn't even register Princess Kayoko's phone number in the first place.

When we first met, Joe called me, so I don't know Hime's cell phone number.
I only kept in touch with Hime via LINE, so I didn't think it would be inconvenient, so I didn't ask for her cell phone number.

Princess Kayoko was very dissatisfied, and after several questions, she finally said that she would not stay overnight and would leave.

It was impolite, but I almost burst out laughing.Princess Kayoko is an attractive woman, but she has no intention of playing games with him.

Princess Kayoko has a boyfriend, and although I didn't ask her for sure, she seems to have at least two other dads besides Joe that she sees regularly.

It was convenient for Joe, and I thought that Princess Kayoko accepted the existence of Joe who didn't pry into anything.

However, the presence of Sakura-chan seems to have hurt the pride of the princess.

When this happens, it's a waste of time to argue.

 

Joe decided to raise the white flag.

"It's fine if you can go home today. Please contact me when you're feeling better."

I handed over the amount of money as usual.Of course? Princess Kayoko took it firmly, said "thank you" in a small voice, and left.

The princess never looked back.She seems to be a more headstrong type of princess than Joe thought, and she was blocked after 5 minutes.

It's refreshing in a way.
 

Even so, for Joe, "Onnagokoro" is as complicated and mysterious as the situation in Europe.
 

Sleeping alone in a maisonette-type room is lonely

It was quite a bad day like this, but the only harvest was

"Sleeping alone in a maisonette-type room is lonely"

I was able to realize that (bitter smile).

Instead, I was able to immerse myself in the memories of the two women.She simply had nothing else to do.

First up is Princess Kayoko.I think I've written about her once, but her charm is that she's a neat and clean beauty, she has a lot of stories to tell, and she has a sense of humor.

I have a deep knowledge of art, so I didn't study it professionally, but I was able to clearly say what I liked and speak it in my own words.

That's why I've always admired Hime's artistic outlook, and it was a fun time.She was happy that she was a heavy drinker and a beer party (like Joe).

There are few likes and dislikes for food, and even though he is delicate, he is a big eater, which is a high point for Joe.

Joe is inexperienced, but he seems to have high betting skills.He said that the men he shared his bed with often questioned his prostitution experience.

I think now that I wanted to be with you at least once.It is also very sad that the number of women who go out to museums has decreased by one.
 

Memorized through the five senses.

On the other hand, I always talked about various things with Sakura-chan, and it must have been a fun time, but it's strange that I didn't remember much about the specifics of the conversation.

On the contrary, it is the momentary feelings and emotions towards her and the images of her that are burned into my head and probably never disappear.

For example, the expression that looks for me when I come to the meeting place.

When he recognizes me, he smiles, and sometimes he instantly sticks out his fingers towards me.

The moment when I hug her and feel the heat on her cheeks before taking a taxi.

and heartbeat.

I open my notebook and check my schedule while wrinkling my eyebrows.

One day, when I praised her hairstyle, she unexpectedly turned bright red and was embarrassed.

When you drink delicious wine, you lift up the glass and exclaim in admiration.
 

These images are memorized in Joe through the five senses.

The visual impression is strong, but in one scene it is memorized with hearing, in another with smell, touch and taste.

SoFor Joe, the days he spent with Sakura were not mere memories, but memories etched into his five senses.

Joe isn't young anymore, so he doesn't cry when he's heartbroken like he used to.

However, my heart aches when I think that I can no longer accumulate memories through my five senses that I built with Sakura-chan.

At the same time, Joe was a little relieved.Because I don't think he will be tossed about any more.


I also know that there are few things that time does not solve.At this point he was Joe who decided to feel heartbroken for the first time in a long time.

But he didn't know or know that Joe was as aware of life as he thought he was.

The pain of the heartbreak was beyond my expectations, and I couldn't easily let go of my feelings for Sakura-chan.

After this, she will have another quarrel with her.

It's currently in progress, so it's likely that a report on the details will come later.

Joe