Life is written in touching history Team [Mental (first) edition]

Prologue

It's been a while since my previous article.

In fact, during this time, I suffered from mental illness for the first time in my life due to my relationship with a girl.

It may not be helpful for members of Hyakusenrenma, but in addition to having fun in relationships with girls on a daily basis, you can get involved in various troubles and make calm decisions at work. There may be some people who are troubled by how to keep a distance from girls even though they are.

I would appreciate it if this article could be of some help to those who are innocent and surprisingly mentally weak like that boy.
 

team and clean room

Masai's work style is team and clean room.

The team mentioned here is a unit and concept in which multiple girls form a portfolio and work together.

At that time, Masai had three team members: z-chan, y-chan, and c-chan.

Anyway, they are the kids who ransom from health and not the club's introduction.


Z-chan was XNUMX years old at the time, a very serious ex-university student, cuter than an idol, and a super honor student with the best reception and attack.

Y-chan was XNUMX years old at the time and was a nursing student.

C-chan was XNUMX years old at the time, unemployed, a typical menhera type, with black hair, wearing a Lolita one-piece dress, and carrying a small rucksack.
As for Ecchi, I judged her to be quite unskilled and inexperienced for working at a shop.


The main character this time is this c-chan.


A clean room means that no disease is brought in or taken out, and that you will not have sex with other men (or girls) during the contract period with this team.

Only if you can agree to this contract will you join the team.
 

c-chan

One day in the very hot summer of this year, a message from c-chan arrives on the line of Masai, who was on a long business trip to Osaka.

c-chan "feeling sick"

Masai: “You said you had a stomach ulcer, didn’t you?”

C-chan "It's not the disgusting feeling of a stomach ulcer."

Masai: "It's true that she was raw last week, but I didn't take it inside, so it's too early for my child to have morning sickness (laughs)."

c-chan「…」

C-chan ``Actually, if you were raped before and you are pregnant, it may be the child at that time.''

Masai: “Hey, hey, for now, let’s get tested.”


c-chan "I'm pregnant, what should I do?"


C-chan is a sloppy child who is likely to be left alone until the time when she cannot have an abortion if she is left alone.

Ironically, what moved c-chan was a strong morning sickness.

Because c-chan could not endure the pain of hyperemesis, she managed to have an abortion.

She didn't file a police report because she was an old acquaintance of the rapist and she paid for the abortion.

In the first place, I had sex with another man, so it was a breach of the team's contract, but if it was true that I was raped, it would be force majeure, so I treated it as a wait-and-see for the time being.

In hindsight, there were some signs of pregnancy when I met c-chan the week before the pregnancy was discovered.

Body temperature, chest tightness, etc... various things.
 

fukuoka live

c-chan is also a bangya (band girl).

After the abortion, while I was still in a bad state, I said that I would go on an expedition to a live performance in Fukuoka.

You are free to decide what you want to use the allowance from here, but even after the abortion, C-chan repeatedly borrowed the allowance from us and wasted it.

Even so, I was still worried about the weight loss, so I took the Shinkansen to the middle of the trip.

I'm worried about c-chan's body, and I'm worried about her post-abortion behavior, so even during the Fukuoka expedition, we had a lot of trouble on the line, and both parties blocked the line on whether to continue or cancel the contract. A fierce battle unfolded (laughs).

This was also a desperate attack on the premise of canceling the contract (laughs)
 

mental

Aftereffects of the Fukuoka Rebellion?Also, shortly after the Fukuoka expedition was over, I got a call from c-chan saying "I will cut off contact from now on", and I became mental.

While I couldn't get in touch with c-chan, over the course of about three days, my heart slowly but surely broke.

My mind is dominated by c-chan, and I have a feeling that my consciousness is XNUMX (going crazy), and my heart is filled with fear of dark places, narrow places, high places, and going to bed in the evening and at night. .

Anxiety attacks everything around you.

In fact, even when I was driving, I couldn't move my body and caused a few small accidents. Through interventions, etc., they were deeply dependent.

When the business is on track and it is about to start, I wonder if I will waste my entire life from now on because I let my guard down, and in the first place, why am I going to live in the future? I'm so sorry for all of you.

Mental hospitals do not have hospitals that can be reached immediately, and all hospitals require reservations.

Even though my first visit was several weeks or months away, I somehow managed to make an appointment, and even so, I waited a few weeks before seeing a doctor.

I have resistance to strong medicine, so I was prescribed Chinese medicine.
 

治療

I did not ask for counseling for treatment.

I have been taking herbal medicine for a long time.

My work is also intermittent, so I managed to get used to it little by little.

It's not a job that requires me to go to work every day, so I thought it would be helpful, but I also thought that if I could force myself to go to work every day like I used to, it would be more distracting.

I have a lot of business trips, so it's okay while I'm in a good mood by driving, but when I'm at a hotel on a business trip, it's dark, cramped, high, it's late in the evening, I can't sleep at night, and my stomach hurts. I literally had to hold it in my arms until it became as small as an insect, and I couldn't sleep at all.

I was recovering little by little, while going back and forth, and after about two months, I felt that I was recovering rapidly.

I am not in remission now, but I have learned the tricks of dealing with the disease, and I am somehow able to continue my business.
 

Summary

That being said, falling doesn't just happen.

Yesterday (December XNUMXth) was also clitoris with z-chan, who just turned XNUMX the other day (laughs).

Z-chan is a child who really creates ideal sex, it's the best (laughs)

Also, there is still more to c-chan's story, so I would like to tell you about it in the second part.

In business, you make tough decisions, but you're sweet with girls.

Also, everyone who depends on girls regardless of their age and exhibits stalking temperament

It's really hard to keep your distance from girls, but in the end it's hard to continue this kind of activity unless you reach the state of enlightenment that some of the column writers have reached. I feel once again.

In the future, I would like to continue my long training aiming for enlightenment (laughs).

Until then, whether the mind and body will hold ... (laughs)


By Miyabi☆彡