The times go round and round.Joy and sadness repeat.

"Turn and turn, the times turn, joy and sadness repeat"
(Quote: "Time" Miyuki Nakajima)

This is the lyrics of the chorus of "Jidai" by Miyuki Nakajima. It is often said that ``history repeats itself'', but these days I feel that even on a smaller scale, it is spinning round and round.

By experiencing various things at the dating club, the "viewable scenery" changes.Ultimately, you will see a different view.I thought this road was such a straight road, but when I got out of the tunnel, the "usual scenery" spread out.
When I thought, "Oh, that's strange," and looked back, I realized that I was going round and round on the same road after all.

That's what this column is about.

Please forgive me if the story derails here and there along the way.

One day when I returned from a date

(What!? The electricity is on!)

Our house goes out early, so it's usually the time when we're asleep.I have a bad feeling. .

I said, "I'm home..." (in a small voice).

Don Don Don Don!
' and my wife rushed to the door.

Wife: “Wait!! You’re not cheating, are you?”

I said, "Yeah. I just did it."

There's no way I can say that (laughs).

At times like this, I instantly turn off the ′′ upset switch ′′ in my heart.and tell myself "I just showed up at a work meeting," he said.

Over the years of my interactions with my wife, sadly, I've acquired the skill to turn off the "upset switch" in an instant.This skill has already become a habit and is starting to affect my daily life.
Thanks to this skill, I can deal with trouble calmly when I have a problem at work, so it's useful, but even in my daily life, I tend to turn off the "upset switch" by myself.

When I'm happy, I can't show a happy expression.
When I'm sad, I can't show a sad expression.

I think I'm just a cold person around me.

Even though I'm slowly getting happy and sad later.
At that time, there is no one around anymore (laughs)

I don't know. . (Quoted by Kai Ato)

Well, let's get back to you.

I turned off the 'upset switch' anyway.

Me: "I just had a meeting. What happened all of a sudden?"(Is a lie)

Wife: “No, when I read the tarot to see if you were cheating on me, I got a “Devil” card in the correct position!
* The "Devil" card in the upright position means "betrayal" and "temptation".

My wife is currently studying tarot reading.
Skills seem to be improving.
you're good.looks like you're working hard.(laughs)

I like tarot readings in the first place, so I have some knowledge of cards.It seems to help this time.

Me: "Isn't that that? It's a devil card, but doesn't it mean 'hate' or 'hold on to it'? Just at that meeting, I had a boss who I really disliked (laughs), so I think it came out?"

Wife: “Is that so?

I said, "I'm not cheating on you (laughs)."

······safe. . (Ho)

Due to my habit of many years, I can't express my "anger", that kind of feeling towards my wife.

My wife is studying tarot reading.Her diligent study has improved her fortune-telling skills.That's a very, very nice thing.

On the other hand,

... It's you! !

After I got out of the bath, I read the tarot cards in the living room and said, "Kick! ’ I glared.

Hey, don't give out unnecessary cards!
It's all your fault! !

I'm sorry Card-san.

Please don't put out any more cards that are inconvenient for me m(_ _)m I'm begging you (laughs)

The "soul" spins round and round

... time goes back.About half a year ago?
When my wife suddenly said she wanted to become a psychological counselor, the next thing I thought was that I was immersed in the world of spirituality, meditating, and studying qigong and aura.
While listening to the results of that study, I naturally became more familiar with that world.Because if you don't listen properly, you will get angry.

I'm sorry if I'm wrong because it's my understanding of what I heard.Or rather, most of the content of this column is false knowledge that I have heard.Sorry if I'm wrong.Please correct me in the comments m(_ _)m

According to his wife, "Even if the body dies, the soul does not."
The soul itself returns to heaven saying, "I had an interesting experience in this life," and waits to be reincarnated in another body.
various events that occur in life.It seems that good things and painful things happen because the soul wants to have such an experience.By accumulating such experiences, the soul will increase the experience value.Then they return to heaven and reincarnate in search of what they want to experience next.It is said that by repeating this, you will become a "higher-dimensional soul".
So, it seems that the souls dwelling in the current children are highly experienced souls that have been brushed up quite a bit.

I see.Is that why my kindergarten daughter has been scolding me lately? ? (smile)

Even if it's a painful event, it's actually because "the soul wants to experience that".So even if it's a painful experience or if you make the wrong choice, in a way you don't have to be depressed more than necessary.It's a necessary process that the soul is looking for to blush the soul.

If you understand that, no matter how hard things get, you will not have to take things too seriously, and you will be able to see yourself objectively.If you pursue it, you will be able to connect with your higher self (yourself that exists in a higher dimension).

From a religious point of view, I wonder if connecting with your higher self is similar to getting rid of worldly desires and liberation from reincarnation (≒opening enlightenment).

In order to connect with the higher self, it is necessary to open the "XNUMXth chakra" on the top of the head, so it seems necessary to meditate.

By the way, it is necessary to open the third eye (third eye) to connect with the higher self.
The third eye is the "sixth chakra" on the forehead (laughs).

After listening to such stories endlessly, it seems that I got a little tired of spirituality, and for some reason I started to get hooked on tarot readings.
Of course it's not the one who is the one who is the one who is the one who is the one who is the Fortune-telling side.

"Tarot" also spins

I was interested in listening to the spiritual story, but the tarot story is more welcome.Because I like tarot readings and still go to tarot readings more than a few times a year.

There are XNUMX basic tarot cards in a set, and there are XNUMX types of cards: XNUMX major arcana and XNUMX minor arcana.Simply put, the Major Arcana is a major card and has a strong meaning.
By the way, the order of the XNUMX cards is as follows.

00 "Fool"
01 "Magician"
02 "The High Priestess"
03 "Empress"
04 "Emperor"
05 "The Pope"
06 "Lovers"
07 "Tank"
08 "Justice"
09 "Hermit"
10 "Wheel of Fortune"
11 "Power"
12 "The Hanged Man"
13 "Shinigami" 
14 "Temperance"
15 "Devil"
16 "Tower"
17 "Star"
18 "Moon"
19 "The Sun"
20 "Judgment"
21 "World"

Each card has its own meaning in its upright and reversed positions, and that is what is used for divination, but the meaning and order of these XNUMX cards also have a story.

The first card "Fool" means "fool" as its name suggests, but it is not a card with only bad meaning.
People around him see him as a "fool," but on the other hand, he himself is full of dreams, hopes, and possibilities, and has a strong will to carve out a new life for himself.He is also a very good card upright.
The next "magician" is a card that represents opportunity, chance, and creation.Yes, the "fool" gets a chance and reaches a turning point.

In this way, the "fool" experiences many twists and turns, and is completed and completed with the final card "World".The Tarot Card Major Arcana is a growth story that begins with the Fool.
And when it is completed in "the world", it returns to "fool" again.And then we restart for the next possibility, purpose, story.

Religious thoughts end up reincarnation without getting rid of worldly desires.Is this the interpretation?

In fact, I was just going round and round through the experience of the dating club.Well, it's full of worldly desires, so it's natural to reincarnate (laughs)

And now I feel like I'm back to being a "fool" again.
I feel like I've grown through the valuable experiences I've had so far, but in the end, I feel like something about myself was just lost and consumed without any growth. .

I want to quickly get rid of my worldly desires and get rid of this cycle of reincarnation.

A God Who Spins "Destruction and Creation"

I'm still off track.

The third eye is the Hindu god Shiva.There are various theories about how Lord Shiva opened his third eye, but one of them is this episode.

A wife (a goddess named Parvati), who finds Shiva devoted to her training uninteresting, jokingly closes her eyes to the meditating Lord Shiva, saying, "Who is that?♡".
Then the world itself stops and the world is wrapped in darkness at once.The eyes of Lord Shiva and the world were connected.

When my wife panicked, "Wawawa!"And the world will return to the original (new world).

In one of the sects of Hinduism, the Shiva sect, Shiva is positioned as the supreme deity who controls the creation, maintenance, and regeneration of the world.

Yes, Lord Shiva also revolves around the world.

As an aside, Shiva still has a lot of crazy episodes.One of them is an episode about the birth of an elephant-faced god called "Ganesha", who is said to be a child of Shiva.
An elephant-faced god that is often found in Asian grocery stores.That is "Ganesha".Thank you God for prosperous business.

Husband (God Shiva) who continues to go out for training.
The wife, who felt lonely while she was away, collects the dirt from her body and makes a beautiful doll.
Then she breathes life into the doll and makes it her son.That is "Ganesha".

One day, when she was about to take a bath, she ordered her son Ganesha to keep a lookout so that no one could enter the bath.
Lord Shiva, who knew nothing about it, suddenly came home and said, "I'm home."
Lord Shiva, who saw Ganesha on guard, naturally

“Who are you!? Why am I at home!!”

.
Shiva does not know Ganesha, and Ganesha does not know the face of his father (Shiva).Ganesha tries to drive Shiva away as per his mother's orders.Enraged, Shiva cut off Ganesha's head and threw it away.

"That's my son!!"

And, of course, the wife who was shocked and lamented.Seeing this, Lord Shiva sets out on a journey to find Ganesha's head, but he cannot find it.
Ultimately, Lord Shiva had no choice but to cut off the head of a random elephant he found on his travels and attach it to Ganesha's head.Why did my wife see it?

"Oh! That's pretty good, isn't it?"

As a result, Ganesha is resurrected as an elephant-headed existence.
The elephant-headed god is the child of such a tondemo couple.I often grew up straight as a "god of prosperous business" (laughs)

first battle

Well, let's finally get back to it.

Looking back on it now, it was vague at the time, but it was the first time I had such a long-lasting relationship with a girl from Nagoya.Her daughter has long since gotten married and returned to her hometown.
A girl who appears in the column "I started removing unwanted hair".She had a very pleasant relationship with this woman.

Next is a dad active girl I met on the app.Her daughter will also give birth next month and return to her hometown.
She is a girl who appears in the columns "The Day I Became a Woman" and "The Day I Became a Mommy Friend".She sometimes wept for this woman, and at other times she became sentimental.

And next is just an affair, but a junior girl I met at work.Her daughter also got married and moved to a place near her husband's workplace.
It is a girl who appears in the column "Hole-filling stick association series".She was frustrated by this woman and had the experience of crying at a love hotel.Even now that she's far away, she continues to have a plain offensive and defensive battle.

Also, this is just an affair, but a divorced woman of the same generation who met at work.This is not a column.I don't think it's okay if we continue talking about things that aren't related to dad activities.
I was disappointed with this woman and tearfully despaired.

In this way, the other woman gets married or is frustrated.As a result, there was a sudden shortage of partners.
And reflect on the hurt and hurt in the relationship with those women.No, I don't want to experience the painful experience of being dumped and crying again (laughs)
From that experience, I felt that "Gappuri Yotsutsu" with a woman was dangerous physically and mentally, so I escaped to the Universe Club.

In other words, I ran away saying, 'Let's not let that happen in the future.'

Here, if you behave with good manners and give an allowance above the market price, it is easy to have such a relationship with a woman.It was such a dream world.

At first, I acted with good manners, but after some time, I started to feel unsatisfied with the ``market price of daddy activities'' and ``papa active dating'' for some reason.

“Oh, did I also experience this world and level up?”I thought.

This is a big misunderstanding.

After all, you were looking for a “heartfelt relationship”.

I don't realize that, so I start searching for "free dating that doesn't get caught up in the market".Now that I think about it, this is, after all, a “heartfelt relationship.”I realized it too late. .

She was the one who made the offer at that time.

When I saw your profile, my intuition worked for the first time in a while.Well, when I make an offer, my intuition is working, so I can't help but feel like an afterthought (laughs)
Of course, I like the appearance of that woman, but for some reason I felt like she would suit me in terms of personality.

I still remember my first battle with her.

It's the end of the meal after the first date and conversation.

Me: “Are you okay after this?

(Yes, of course.)

She said, "Eh!

(What!?)

Today, I instantly recall the content of the conversation that led up to this point.There shouldn't have been any major blemishes.

If so, is the cause the amount of the allowance?

The total power including my visuals and the amount of allowance do not match.Hypothesize that it is so.

However, it was around the time when I was searching for “free dating that is not bound by market prices”.The allowance increase is a mess "papa active relationship".

In the first place, is it better to pay more than the market price?Even if you pay a lot, there is no guarantee that you will have a long-term relationship or a good relationship.What should I do···.

At that time, a line from a certain manga crosses my mind.

These are the words of George Joestar, the father of Jonathan Joestar, the main character in the first part of the manga "JoJo's Bizarre Adventure".I'm sorry it's a cartoon lol

"Think the other way around. Think, 'I can give it away.'"
(Quote: George Joestar "JoJo's Bizarre Adventure Vol. XNUMX")

George Joestar, a true gentleman, thinks so.
He behaves like a gentleman with good manners.It is sometimes to respond to the other person's request without asking for anything in return, thinking "I can give it to you".Then someday it will come back to me.
That kind of behavior is important for a gentleman.

In this case, the answer is, of course, an increase in allowances.

Me: “Then, how about XX million?”

In a relaxed tone, I tried to add the amount of money I had earlier and presented it.

She: “No.

(What!?)

Not enough! ?
I can't pretend anymore!
Enough!

Me: “Then how about XNUMX? By the way, I’m really normal, really normal.

I offered a further increase in my allowance.
That act, it's no longer a gentleman's act (laughs)

She said, “No.

No! !

Please tell me that quickly (laughs)

She said, "But maybe it's okay (laughs)."

I said, “Thank you (crying)!!”

After all, the condition was "just after menstruation" (laughs)

Head to the hotel.
So what happened to your bill?It's annoying.

But what should gentlemen do?If you think about it, the answer will naturally come out.

It is the spirit of "Think the other way around. Think, 'It's okay to give it away.'"

I put the increased max value in a pocket bag and handed it to her.

Then she checked the thickness of the envelope

She said, "Huh? Isn't that a lot? You got too much.

(What are you doing!?)

The gentleman at heart (George Joestar) naturally says, "Never take it."

Me: “No, you don’t have to return it.

I declined the refund, but she already took the money out of the envelope and presented it to me.

In the end I...

Me: "(With a crying face) Thank you. I'm so happy."

I received it.

Yes, it was the moment when the goddess descended in front of me (laughs)

battle in front of the nipple

After that, we started dating on a regular basis.

Every time we met, we gradually opened up to each other.
It's been a few times since we met.

After going to bed, enter from the usual kiss and flow down.That's when my face just met my chest, or rather my nipples.

She asked, “Is it okay if I straighten my teeth?”

I stop moving in front of my nipples.

(If you don't answer "It's okay (we will support you with money)", you can't proceed!?)

By the way, my wife also started orthodontic treatment a few years ago and just finished paying for it.It's finally over, but I'm still being asked to pay for orthodontic treatment.

Am I working and earning money for my teeth straightening? (smile)

I can't get my thoughts together, so I buy time with the nipple in front of me.

Me: "Hmm? What about orthodontic treatment?"

She said, "I've been worried about the alignment of my teeth for a long time. Even if I received a new offer, I thought that if I had straightened it, I wouldn't like it, so I couldn't make the decision. So... is it okay if I straighten it?"

Is this what it means?I am prepared to stop the offer and start straightening my teeth.Instead, he wants me to help pay for his corrections.

Nipples in front of you.
The nipple is staring at me as if asking for my answer.

I answer while keeping my eyes on the nipple.

Me: “By the way, how much will it cost?”

She said, "It depends on the dentist, but I think it's around XX million to XX million."

I don't remember how I felt at that time.

Maybe it was because the gentleman in my heart (George Joestar) said to me, "I think it's okay to give it to you," or because I just wanted to lick the nipple in front of me. of .

Me: "...it's difficult to do it all at once, but if you give me a certain amount of money and split the rest..."

yes to her

... No, I answered the nipple.

Then the nipple in front of you suddenly shakes up and down.

(What!?)

Looking up at her timid face, she burst into laughter.

She said, "No (laughs) No. I'm talking about whether you'll continue dating even if you correct me, it's not like 'pay me money' (laughs)"

No! !

Please tell me that quickly (laughs)

I returned my face to the nipple in relief, and immediately caught the bobbing nipple with my mouth.

I ``(While happily huffing my nipples) I thought that if I didn't tell you to pay, I wouldn't be able to proceed any further~ (crying)''

By all means, please try to say "I want to do ○○ (which costs money)."

Papa's movement may stop suddenly (lol)

About allowance

It's about time that the number of times we meet each time has increased.

She said, "Actually, I have something to discuss."

The "consultation" in this neighborhood is a request related to money.I didn't come.

Even if I get upset, it looks bad, so I turn off the "upset switch" that I'm good at.

I said, "What's wrong?"

She: “No.

I said, "Yeah."

she"······"

She said, "...I got too much! No! I'll return it today!!"

(What are you doing!?)

To tell the truth, she's been telling me, "Hmm... I feel like I've received too much."However, it was a normal thing in dating clubs, so naturally I gave allowances every time.

No, I'm not going to give you my allowance.Because my allowance is the condom of my heart.
(Quote: Column writer and respondent Mr. Mack)

Although I managed to push back the allowance that was coming back,"Then I don't need next time!"she says.

Well, what happened? .

So we discussed about future relationship.And as a result, we came to the conclusion that ``Let's have a relationship that is not unreasonable for each other.''

How many times does an adult meet ○ times for a monthly fee?If you decide so, you will be tied up with each other and you will be reserved and selfish.

So, my payday is ○ days, and the next time we meet, I will pay a reasonable monthly allowance.
Looking at the amount, she decides the number of times and content of the meeting according to her convenience and mood.
Even if it's not the number of times or the content that's worth the money, it's okay.I have no complaints.

It was decided like this.

"Think the other way around. Think, 'I can give it away.'"

The relationship that started with such a development.
In the end, it led to the "dating without being caught in the market" that I was looking for.

As George Joestar said.A true gentleman Sir Joestar is great (laughs)

A relationship that is not caught in the market, what is the end?

"Dating without market sense"

The frequency and content of the meeting is up to her.
That's why I'm happy when I'm told "I want to meet you" and when I'm dating an adult.

I was honestly floating.In addition, by achieving a certain level of purpose, I feel like I have reached the "world" in terms of tarot cards.

But it was only for a short time.

 

I'll find out after a while.

Before I knew it, my mind and body were bound by her and I couldn't move.

The timing and number of times we meet is up to her.Basically, I'm waiting for a date offer from her.Of course, there is also a sudden invitation.

I want to accept that sudden invitation.Of course I want to meet her too.
In other words, it is difficult to schedule other dates (laughs)

And, after all, she responded with a monthly amount below the market price, so I'm sorry if I don't give priority to her when I have extra money.

In addition, I don't think there is a better girl than her, so I don't feel like making new offers, let alone meeting other women.I feel sorry for such actions.

The ultimate goal should have been 'a relationship that is not bound by market prices', but in the end I was looking for a 'heartfelt relationship'.

And as a result, it's a really hard problem that I'm starting to like her.

But I can't let that feeling out.... No, I'm using my allowance as an excuse to leak a little (laughs)

Danger to "women and gappuri four".And I don't want to repeat my own painful and sad feelings again, reflecting on the fact that I caused trouble to the other person by my own karma.
And I should have escaped to the dating club saying, ``Let's not do that kind of thing in the future.''

And after various unknown experiences, can't you see "new scenery"?I thought so, but in the end it was "same scenery".

It's "I love you, but I can't help it", and at the same time, it's also "the emptiness of knowing that the other person doesn't want that kind of feeling".

To use a tarot analogy, just when I thought I was done with "the world", before I knew it, I had returned to "fool".

If I compare it spiritually, does my "soul" seek such sadness and sorrow after all?

Lord Shiva.It would be nice if they could destroy and create with the power of God, with more cruel power and impact.

With twists and turns, trial and error, I worked hard on my own and did it!Goal!I thought, "Same ending". .Isn't that even more cruel! ?

So we know the end of this story.

"Right now, I'm so sad, my tears have dried up, and I don't think I'll ever be able to smile again."
(Quote: "Time" Miyuki Nakajima)

It will probably end up like this.

By the way, this is the opening lyric of "Jidai".It's even deeper when you think about it.

Go to karaoke by yourself and sing "Jidai" with tears in your eyes. (Miyuki Nakajima's original song has a high key, so this is the Hideaki Tokunaga version.)

How many more times in my life should I do this?How many more times will it go round and round?

Or what is my "soul" that seeks this kind of experience?

something?Was the previous life the "soul of a popular man" or the "soul of a shogun in the heart of the palace"? ?

In my previous life, I had a harem of Uhauha, so this time I'm daring to seek a sad experience! ? (smile)

Even though I'm thinking about that, I'm going round and round these days.

After a few more laps, I feel like I've become more objective than before, so I wonder if I'll be able to connect with my Higher Self after a few more laps.

Is the opening of my third eye near? (smile)

Anyway, this time, "not causing trouble to the other party" is my second most important issue.If you can do that, you can say that you have grown a little.

Let's go round and round in this world a little more.

I want my life to be fun and not sad, but it ends up being sad.

What are you looking for in life ^^;

next time (probably)

*I am currently accepting applications for the "Papa Life Worries Counseling Room".I will listen to anything, whether it's a problem or a complaint.
Also, while studying to compete with my wife's tarot readings, I became able to do tarot readings (laughs).It's time to get a lot of fortune telling to improve your skills, so feel free to ask.

【Application method】
・Please send an e-mail containing the contents of ① to ⑤ to the following e-mail address.
[　onayami@aol.com　]

①Universe club membership number and club name
② Number of offers so far
(XNUMX) Overview of consultation content
④ Desired consultation method (non-face-to-face or face-to-face)
　Whether or not a female member wishes to be present during the interview
⑤ [new] Desire for tarot reading

Please refer to the column for details.
https://universe-club.jp/column/onayamisoudan