A date with someone you met for the first time through a dating club.

Surprisingly, I didn't have any expectations or imaginations about the allowance or the person.

Maybe I was trying not to think about it.What can happen in the future, that the reality is not so easy, and that when you try to get something, you need a certain amount of compensation.I know in my head that I need to be ready for it in advance.It might be more correct to say that I forced myself to convince myself.Still, I was inspired by the fun things that awaited me, and approached the day with a positive attitude.From underwear to clothes to hairstyle, I intend to create the most beautiful version of myself.

Aside from that, I've always been really bad at taking pictures. I seriously didn't expect to receive an invitation.It's true that I was grateful just for choosing me, and when I heard the news, I felt a little warm.

The meeting was during lunchtime, and I was a little surprised that we might have lunch together, but at the same time, I felt a sense of security that I wouldn't be asked to go beyond the meal today. was

I arrived 10 minutes before the meeting time and made a phone call just in time.I was embarrassed to give myself a club name.It was also the Minamoto name that was used at the club, so there was a little nostalgia.

From the voice I heard when the phone started to connect, I intuitively felt, "This person probably doesn't exist."I knew in advance that he was one generation older than me, but I was encouraged by the fact that I could still see him as a man in terms of his age.But his voice gave the impression of being quite old, and it was hard to imagine him doing anything with this man like his lover.However, it was too early to judge "yes" or "no" just by the voice, so I canceled the feeling of "no" that I felt at first and waited until the arrival.

When I was called out and was able to confirm the face, I was convinced that it was "not".There is nothing wrong with him.She took a liking to me for some reason and even paid to see me.I really appreciate it.However, I don't find him attractive as a man.But that's it.There is nothing you can do about that fact.However, there was no way I could say, "I'm sorry. This time it didn't happen." rice field.

　On that day, I intended to show the "natural smile that comes out when I'm having fun from the bottom of my heart," which I had acquired through my experience, and act in a way that would please the man.

However, no matter how old you are and how much experience you have, you realize once again that it is extremely difficult to relax and enjoy a meal with someone you have just met for the first time.

Due to the corona crisis, acrylic boards were set up on the tables, adding to the noise of the surroundings, making it difficult for each other's voices to reach each other during conversations.On top of the hurdle of meeting for the first time, physical hurdles stand in the way, and the act of asking each other from time to time creates awkwardness.I needed more effort than usual, such as coming up with a question and talking to him before the silence dragged on.It wasn't just me, it was probably the same for my partner.

After finishing the lunch course, we decided to head to the second bar, which is open from early hours.Most of the conversations during lunch were innocuous (how long have you been in the club? Where are you from?, etc.). rice field. She replied, "Huh?" "No, I have beautiful skin. I've heard that taking the pill makes your skin beautiful," she replied.Intuitively, she knew that it was a confirmation that she was okay to go "inside."She didn't particularly feel bad about her.That's it, she just understood.

On the way to the second house, I was approached about a specific allowance.

"If it's only for meals, you're thinking of two Yukichis, and ten adults, but what do you think?"

　I didn't expect to be negotiated so straight, and I was grateful that it was easy to understand. "It's 10 Yukichi in 100 times. I think it would be nice if I could support you even a little," he said.In his mind, I understood whether this person thought that one meal with me and that kind of relationship was worth this amount of money.He frankly thought that he was an invaluable support. "When can we meet next time? I can meet anytime."

　At the second bar, which has a pretty good atmosphere, I had a drink and my tension was relieved, and from the side, I think that an atmosphere like a couple was created.

　It was taken out of my wallet on the way home, and I received it as it was as "transportation expenses" (certainly the amount of the allowance for just the meal that was declared earlier), and after a short while after leaving the store, I disbanded.

　Lunch was very delicious and it was a restaurant that I genuinely wanted to come again. The second bar, which I have been to several times, always has a good atmosphere.I didn't have any particular displeasure with men either, and I didn't have anything to worry about other than the first thing I didn't like (the fact that I wasn't seen as a man) and the question "Are you taking the pill?" .However, rather than being accustomed to women, I got the impression that they were gently wrapped and lifted.I'm very rude, but I thought that even if this man invites a woman, it won't be much more than a meal.Even I, who just started this side business, expected that the amount presented was higher than the market price.

　I can't lie that I was dazzled by the amount of money, but I needed time to think a little about whether I could do the "work" commensurate with the price, and whether I would be willing to do it.